*

Can i
turn back the time
and
say YES
to you?

Another break

Again, time flies...
another sem has gone..
2 weeks ++ break started from today!

anyway, my thesis still here!! it's still here!!!
gosh.. so annoying! waiting for me to be completed!!!
argh!!!
supposed shall i have a nice holiday without any work, assignment...?!
T.T

so worried about my result in this sem!
everything will be fine?!
i donno...
wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu

Arghh!
frustrated!! tired!!
depressed!!! stressed!!! hopeless!!!
3 assignments
1 test
1 presentation comes after the test
2 final exam
the second subject continuous on the next day morning...
how to deal with all of these??!!!
lack of time! lack of confidence! lack of everything!!!
**crying**


i wanna go back home :( :( :(

Gambateh!

i'm back to here again...
continue doing my research in these few days...
non-stop working...
(2 more assignments, 1 proposal, 1 presentation and 1 test)
1 more month to go..
for FINAL!
LACK OF TIME!

keep reminding myself,
have to work harder,
try my best in everything..
i know i might not doing it well..
but at least i have try my very best!

the last 2 sem r the toughest sem for me in degree life,
keep on telling myself,
i have to be strong,
to overcome everything!
JIAYOU!

永远的永远

在新春佳节的日子里，
又再想起已到另一个世界的奶奶，
接近五年了，在这些日子里少了她的声音， 少了她的存在，少了她那拿手的菜肴...
真的很不习惯...

多年里， 不曾忘记过去...

很想念，很想念...
想念着以前所有的一切一切...

老人家难免会有唠叨的时候，
有时觉得有点烦，
可是现在却很想念那唠叨的声音，
不过，那声音已永远永远的消失在人间了...
很遗憾以前不曾珍惜唠叨的声音...
因为以后再也无法听见了...

奶奶的影子常常浮现在我的脑海里，
与她生活及相处多年， 真的有很多回忆...
奶奶坚强的意志力，
真的很佩服，
身为寡妇的她，一手把五个孩子养大，
为了生活， 她不仅是要照顾孩子，而且还要打理生意，
真的很辛苦...

一直到几年前，
很不幸的她患上了心脏病，
这种病，时好时坏，没有人可以预料到，
曾经病发入院几次，
看见奶奶呼吸困难的样子，
真的很心痛，很伤心，
挣扎了几个月，
在06.05.2005 的这一天，
她走了... (不再回来了， 奶奶的声音永远消失了...)

还记得那一天，
接到爸爸的电话，
我们便赶紧的回家，
可是，我们却无法赶及见到奶奶临走前的那一面...
在那一刻， 真的无法接受事实...

一直到现在，很想念很怀念...
那永远永远在我心中含有重要的位置,
也是我永远永远最爱的奶奶...
只希望她能幸福的活在另一个世界里...

偶尔真的会想起一切,
永远怀念您... 奶奶...

Down

i found sth weird happened today.. after i received the email from my supervisor..
i'm wondering the question that he asked me..
i found there is sth hiding in the meaning of the word..
from the word "defer"
i'm so worried after i c this word..
coz it might be referring to sth...

i hope i have wrong or false thinking on this word...
i hope she is not the one betraying me..
i hope i'm thinking too much...

i'm down because of this word! :(((

觉得好无助 !

I'm so sad!
I'm facing difficulties on working out my thesis!
I found that i'm really stupid.. I do not know how to do research!
Why i'm so so so stupid?!
Feel disappointed on myself and frustrated with everything!
I can't imagine what will happen soon!
I worry i couldn't overcome all difficulties!
SIGH!!!
:'(

PAIN!

gosh! i'm suffering from muscule pain!!!
it's pain!

muscle pain + headache
because of
badminton + assignments

assignments and dissertation,
can both of u treat me nicely?!

both of u driving me crazy!

=.=

It's 1.05am!

I cannot fall asleep!!!

I cannot fall asleep!!!

I cannot fall asleep!!!


muscle pain after playing badminton today! :S
something funny happened before we start playing~
gosh! very shameful (but very funny)
1. we did not know how to hang up the net! luckily some gentlemen gave us helping hands~ lolz!
2. we did not bring any shuttle cock! we were so shy to borrow from those guys, in the end we were forced to use the shuttle cock (almost spoiled) which was on the floor!!

we are the 2 girls who did not have any knowledge about badminton~ lolz
what a shame! haha!

New Sem

I'm back to the old place, INTI again~
holiday OFFICIALLY ended!
but, my holiday mood still ON!

Regular classes begin on mon,
this will be my second last sem in INTI,
hope everything will be fine,
everything goes smoothly...

i have to write a long long assignment in this sem and next sem,
which is so called THESIS!
without this, i may not complete my degree and get my degree cert~
the moment i think of it = *scratching* my head~
the toughest assignment ever!!!
anyway, i must try my best to do it..

Congratulation to my craziest fren~ BOEING a.k.a lil devil
who got the first class honor for her degree!!!
wow! she is clever indeed!!!
it's hard for accounting student to score for first class!
but she did it!!!
Congrats!!!
i should take her as my model!
study hard, study smart!!!

boring holiday

i'm having a boring holiday~~
i slept till 11++ every morning XD
too bored.. nothing to do..
went to jogging in the morning and sometimes in the evening
watching drama every night
what else can i do?!

haven't start to do my thesis D:
because i'm
lazy

learning baking with mom in this week :D
cakes, cookies, egg tarts... etc.

holiday!

i'm back to kl........weeeeeeeeeee!
left inti last night, left the lonely place... even frens are there, but i still feel lonely when being there for too long... hmm.. donno y..

have been waiting for this moment since sept.. finally, i can enjoy my holiday now! yesh!
2 months break... wat to do? wat to do?

Crazinessssssss

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I'm crazy!!!

加油!

现在疯狂的在加油!
读书加油, 身体也在拼命的加着"油"!!!

"sticking" with my study desk for the whole day~~~~~~ :S

我累了...

will be sitting for the 1st paper on next thursday...
1 more week to go..
but...
我累了...

last night didn't sleep well.. because of backache + shoulders pain.. :S
today morning, i found that i have slightly fever.. zzz...
ahhhhhhh..
really tired laaaaaaaaaaaaa.....
:'(

(someone said: no matter how strong a girl to be, she also needs support and a shoulder to lie on..
now i found that it's so true...
when parents were not around to take care of...)

Dead Fish

argh! what happened to me today?!
woke up very early to continue for my revision but feel sleepy in the whole day!
zzzZzzZzz (it's nice if i could sleep for whole day)

nothing goes into my mind when i read the notes..
totally do not understand what am i reading..
i'm just like a dead fish today!
keep staring on the books n notes...
without any understanding~
argh! i'm going to die this time!

i feel relax at this moment...
when updating my blog~ :)

listening to
N SYNC - Bye Bye Bye
- Thinking of you (super nice song)
on the volume to max... lolz
Finally, i'm awake!

finally...

finally, settled all the assignments and presentation today! feel relax now...
weeeeeeee~

can take a short break today!
have been rushing for assignments since the 2nd week till the last week of this sem! short sem really terrible huh!
anyway, just hope all the efforts will not be wasted!

i still have left than 10 days to prepare for my 1st exam on next thursday~
will be stress again for the following days~ :S

2 more weeks to go! gambateh
TEO SHEOW JING
:)

NO LAZINESS! NO PROCRASTINATION!

Luck, i need you!

it's my turn to present tomoro~
i do need luckssssssss!

have prepared for the presentation since saturday..
and i do hope that i can do well tomoro! NO MORE nervous and fear feeling anymore.. PLS!

hope everything goes smoothly tomoro! wish me luck :)

OUCH! my leg suddenly get cramp! :S

命中注定

everything happened is out of our control.. is it this so called 命中注定?
suddenly i have some impressions across my mind..
after i had viewed a blog of my fren...

the contents of her blog are sounds so sad... hmm.. actually i knew what had happened on her in the past.. but i could not give any helping hands.. it's due to the privacy of somebody... i have to respect her..

i know her feelings very well.. because i also have gone through this kind of problem before...
but everything is just like "命中注定"... we have no choice and unable to change everything.. we must follow and adapt to it.. that's all what we can do in our lives~

命中注定? i don wish my life to be controlled..

"注定"? is it everyone could not run away from this?

Insomnia

yo~ it has been such a long long time i didn't update my blogspot and frenster's blog as well.. weeeeee.. finally.. i'm here again :)
i have forgotten my password and user name to login my account~ lolz!

i'm here right now.. it's nearly 2am.. i couldn't fall asleep.. hmm..
i'm worrying for my coming presentation on monday.. it seems so scary after i heard somebody talked about thursday presentation... i always face the problems in talking or expressing the words.. this is the reason why i always cannot do well in all my presentations... hmm.. always find the ways to improve myself.. but.. the consequences.. can see clearly.. NEVER improve! haha!

yes, it's time to test my memorizing skill again.. =.= today is saturday and i still left 2 more days to prepare for the presentation.. abit nervous, panic, weird feeling, sad (after this have to start revision d), happy (can rest on mon after the presentation)....... mixture of feelings~

always ask myself "what is the best way to express my feelings and thoughts?"
A: blogging! the only way to express everything (happiness, sadness, anger...), even no response from the screen, but at least i feel much comfortable after expressing everything from my heart~

happiness: this feeling could be seen clearly from my face expression.. hohoho~ it seems like not hard to comfort myself.. as long as i get what i want in my life... (not necessary to be rich, but satisfaction in life would make someone happy..)

sadness: everyone said i always think of the negative side of a problem.. but i admitted.. because it's so true~ lolz.. always feel sad because of having stressful life, facing problems in assignments, examinations....... alot problems actually :(

anger: always pek chek with what am i doing.. sometimes really angry and hate myself.. always regret with what i have done.. me > really stupid huh!

anyway, not in right mood in these few days.. due to the work overloaded :S
really tired.. desperately need a long term break now.. but i still have to sit for the final exam which coming in less than 2 weeks.. wow! really challenging! now only i understand the miserable final year life! but someone told me.. i should appreciate the life with lots of assignments, tests, exams... because working life is much more tougher and boring... may be this is true~

my brain is stop working now.. could not able to continue blogging.. even i'm still so energetic at this moment.. what can i do now? hmmmmmm... (count sheep or stars?)